When I was 18, I remember crying to my teacher about how I couldn’t bare leaving my friends behind when we part ways and head off to university or whatever path we were taking.
The thought of it was awful.
I had grown up with these people. I had some of my favourite memories with them. Spent every day with them 5 days a week.
But things change. People change and so do friendships.
But it is ok.
At first I never thought I would be able to accept the fact those memories would come to an end but now it just feels normal.
But I’m always thinking of what it used to be. What we did. Where we went. The Laughs. The fun.
Our “camping trip” which resulted in us getting scared the darker it got and deciding to just stay in one of our gardens.
Spending from mid day till late at night, all together in a field every single day one summer.
The house parties which involved various dramas, kissing boys who were our friends and drinking cheap alcohol because that’s all we could afford and all our parents would buy.
I’d still consider the majority of the friendship group my close friends, despite the fact I don’t see them all the time. I might not have seen some of them for a year, two years. But I know that everything will be the same as it once was when I do.
Things have changed and life has moved on. We all grew up. It is hard to find time in between jobs, university and living in different parts of the country. “Oh yeah we will meet up” ends up being a minor chance of it actually happening.
But it is ok to move on. It is ok to grow up. People change and that is certainly one thing we all learnt for sure. It is ok to leave people behind because they don’t fit into your life anymore. It is just the way it works.
I’d give anything for 24 hours back to how things once were, before we all parted ways. Just one more house party. One more night at the pub. One more night at The Ridge.
I miss the spontaneity of being 18. Being able to hop on the bus and meet my friends whenever they called. The months of planning house parties and what we were going to wear. I’d even go as far to say I miss the gossip and petty drama we thrived off. I miss having the support of the boys as well as girls around me. I miss the love we all had.
There are times that I wish I could go back but right now I am happy and content with how things are. Even if it does mean mourning the end of what it once was and the memories it withholds. You cannot bring everyone with you.
To that friendship group, I still love you all dearly.